Time

We take it, we give it, we lose it, we make it, & we waste it. One concept, so many possibilities. I'm sitting, watching The Lake House and contemplating the time I've spent and the time ahead of me. I'm not sure if the time I've spent so far has been time well spent. I know that, recently, I have not been the best me that I can be. So it's time for another re-evaluation of my life. However, the world wide web is not the place for that re-evaluation.

Last night, my mom and I watched The Breakfast Club and Pretty Woman. The 80's flashback was phenomenal and completely enjoyable. I can't even tell you how much I love hanging out with my mom, just me and her. Part of the reason we had our marathon was to help me stay up late. Sean came home a day early from trek and left a few hours after to go back to Arizona. Luckily, I got to go see him in that small [win|dow] of time....around midnight. He was nearly dead on his feet (my poor boy) and it was fantastic to see him. One of my favorite parts about seeing him last night was that when I got there, he had just gotten out of the shower and was only wearing his basketball shorts. His excellent hair was still damp and he had no shirt on. My man is foxy! I...can't even believe how crazy I am for him. It's unreal. Happy!

I spent a lot of my evening playing the piano, figuring out how to play "The Only Exception" by Paramore in a prettier, more flowing sort of way than I had already figured out. I learned it for Sean and he wants me to play it for him over the phone tomorrow. Nervousness. But, oh, I'm so excited! I just hope I can hit the notes and have it all work out. I hope I don't start crying in the middle. That would be a real downer.

My internet is about to decide I can't use it anymore so I must end this blog that I've been trying to write for two days. Take care of you!

New Goals

Well it's a little belated but I'm beginning my summer time exercise routine. I finally got Hip Hop Abs back from Alexis and I did the "Total Body Burn" and I am going to be super sore tomorrow. It feels absolutely fabulous.

The strangest part of exercise is while you exercise, you feel like you'd rather be dead (more often than not) but afterward, you feel as if you could go for hours and you want to keep going and going. I feel extremely fantastic and hungry hee hees! Watching The Holiday, one of the best girl movies in the United States. It's a film that makes me feel like romance can be really lovely but then watching Iris struggle to let go of a toxic relationship and getting over her co-dependency gives me a feeling of hope. I can find my independence and there does not need to be a man involved to find that. However, having a man definitely has its perks. Especially having my man. He just left to go on trek and then he'll be going straight back to Arizona. He doesn't come back to me until August 4th. Such a tragedy.
I, unfortunately, spent much of the day moping around the house, watching television and playing freecell. I went, this afternoon, to drop off a job application at Down East Outfitters but that took all of two minutes plus travel time. I also went to check on my grandma's cats since she and my grandpa are out of town, helping my uncle run volleyball camp at Arizona State University. Her male Siamese cat attacked me. He was desperate for loves and attention and when I wasn't paying attention, he tried to jump into my arms and dug his claws into my chest. I have some real butch-like claw marks on my left side. It's super lovely (pulls the creeper smile). Those poor kitties are so neglected right now.

"You're supposed to be the leading lady of your own life for [goodness'] sake!" Never a better quote for all those sad women who let themselves go. Be your own leading lady! That is my other new goal. Make myself feel like I am all that. Find my inner and outer beauty and reach my potential! Outstanding.